Thread:LoveLightandPeace/@comment-38677784-20200321181330/@comment-45192609-20200324115847

Aww thank you. :) I will keep that in mind if I will ever decide to visit Peru. Though it won’t be anytime soon.

Well same here, I love Narnia and Lotr, but HP? That was too dark for me. Voldemort is seriously the vilest of all villains. I was most often very uncomfortable whenever he appeared either in book or movie. So I am no HP fan. But I adore Narnia and Lotr. I loveee a good Mystery too and Adventure. :D But not Horror and typical Romance stories. I heard for Count of Monte Cristo just never read. Maybe I will give it a go.

Ohh, that sounds interesting xD Although I am not into shows much, I only watched Friends, My name is Earl, and Desperate Housewives (just that series went downhill towards the end). That House guy sounds awful, but interesting at the same time. XD

Have you ever read Sherlock Holmes? Or watched? I never have. I just want to hear your opinion in case you did.

Yes, I have terrible thyroid problems, a very weak heart (since birth), and other problems. They just stare at me like “I have no idea how to help you... I am sorry.” And back home I go, still feeling as sick as ever. I have such terrible thyroid problems that it feels as if I am dying piece by piece. On top my weak heart and other health issues just make things worse. So I rarely go through a day without feeling any pain anywhere. If this happens, it’s like a blessing. I am one of most sickest people I know of, excluding the eldery people ofc. >_< I am having these problems for many years and though I am in my twenties, I feel like a 90 year old lady ready to die. It’s really awful, to the point that I pray I won’t live much longer. It’s unbearable, but I stay positive. Life is still beautiful, worth living, but if hinders me from being productive. Can’t even have a normal job, because my doctors told me to avoid stress as much as possible. Most jobs are stressful which worsen my condition even more. I don’t want pity, so that’s not why I said that. XD So don’t feel sorry for me. I am still grateful for everything. Some people have less. And I promise I am not suicidal xD It’s just something I had to accept and live with it. This is why I dream of being a patient in Edenbrook.

Oh I love Teagan. She’s such a sweetheart. If I’d be into women, I’d flirt with her. At first I was wondering “Who’s Adam?”, so I had to Google that XD Now I see why I got confused. I named him something else XD I chose him as a LI too, and was one of rarest main LI’s I chose, but I had no feelings for him or anyone in AME. Wait, you liked Vince? O_O I thought he was absolutely repulsive XD But I respect your taste. But yes, I got that feeling too, that Vince might have had a crush on Adam. Good observation. I liked Jen and Chadley (from RCD). He’s so quirky and different to the point of being lovable. :)

Oh my goodness XD I am also considering of romancing Tyril. He is the most interesting guy there. Mal is definitely hotter, but personality wise I prefer Tyril the most and I always go for the one whom personality I like more. I don’t get how Imtura is a LI tbh. She’s so... idk. Like a mix of a goblin and human. o_o Yikes. Not to sound insulting but her bottom teeth repulse me. But okay, I guess some peopls might fancy that. Nia is a sweety though. XD Would love to have her as a real life friend, but without her liking me in romantic way.

Betrayal? o_o Gaius wasn’t friends with the MC so this was no way a betrayal. It was very obvious to me that he’d kill the MC too, since she was the one who attacked him (for a good reason though). In his self defence he killed her. I never hated him for that even before I started liking him. If this were to happen to me in real life, Gaius stabbing me in stomach, and if I would’ve survived that, I’d still forgive him if I would’ve realized that he was under someone’s control. :) I could still be able to develope feelings for him. My heart is capable of forgiveness.

People have done a lot of awful things to me, worse than what Gaius did,.. and they were those close to me. They betrayed me in worst way possible. They never apologized, never showed any remorse... I still found it in my heart to forgive them. I wish them no ill, I don’t want to get revenge. I just want to continue with my life, and have peace. I do not wish to be anyone’s karma. They will get back everything anyway. Universe will decide their fates, not me. So the worst version of Gaius is still a mild version of these people I used to know in real life. Trust me, I am not even joking. One of them was just like Voldemort personality-wise. If people would go through the same hell I did, they’d have a much easier time forgiving people like Gaius. But I don’t love the villainous Gaius, though, but only the saved one from chapter 12 (ending) and on.

Some person who knows my life story, told me to write a book, to make my life into a movie, because they said that a lot of people would get inspired after they’d see that there are people like me who remain forgiving until the end. By forgiving a person you don’t excuse their actions, you just save yourself from emotional pain. I still don’t want to be romantic with cruel people, I am no masochist, but Gaius possesses more empathy and compassion (the real one not the brainwashed one), than 80% of all the people in rl that I know of. Gaius is capable of love which most aren’t. He’s flawed, was even before Rheya brainwashed him, but he’s also caring and has a good heart. This is why I love him. He’s now trying to become better which most people in rl don’t even want to try.

Why can’t you forgive Adrian? O_O He just did that to save the MC >_< I was actually grateful that he did it. Would you’ve preffered for him to let the MC die? Just curious. It’s an interesting topic. :)