User blog:His sweet little Angel/Bloodbound III: Gaius Augustine

''Edit: I have deleted my previous blog here, because I believe it was too long, and decided that I will instead just copy paste my comment which is under Gaius Augustine’s profile. Because you cannot delete a blog on your own.''

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So about Gaius Augustine~

He’s truly my all time favorite Choices charachter. :) Fascinating in every way. A multidimensional person. There’s so much to him and we still know almost nothing about. We know only a little side of him, because it’s not been long since he got released from Rheya’s mind control. The real Gaius is so lovable. <3

I wish Gaius will be redeemed in the future. Not because he’s my favorite that I’m saying this, but because he truly wish to change for the better and he deserves a chance to prove it. And come on, it’s not like Gaius wanted to be under Rheya’s control. Otherwise he wouldn’t react with anger after discovering what Rheya did to him. I am not excusing his actions, but I understand how it must have felt like to have your positive memories wiped away from you, memories of his past, of his wife he loved. His Soul altered and stripped to feel any compassion, empathy. What person we would be if we’d be like that? Have our hearts filled with darkness? Have no nice memories of past?

Where you’d go on living while believing nothing good has ever happened to you and the only “good thing” in your life is the very person who damaged you like that? You’d be incapable of feeling empathy, your heart would be filled with fear, hatred, anger... If you can imagine yourself as someone like that, who says you wouldn’t be like Gaius? Perhaps, because our Egos are different, we would express a different type of darkness than Gaius. But then a miracle would happen and we would have “woken up” realizing that we aren’t really this monster... How would we feel if we’d truly desire to improve ourselves, we’d truly want to change and be better, but everyone would treat us still like a monster... hate us, reject us, wish death upon us. How we’d feel? We might understand them, but we’d still be hurting. A lot. More than we would imagine.

As I said before I am not excusing his actions, because he was conscious and he did these horrible things while being aware of doing them, but what I am saying is that I understand him perfectly. I understand that if you are your worst version of yourself, how can you be ... better? If you are worst? How can you find that light inside you if it was suppressed by someone else? How can you find the capacity to posses any type of decency if nothing’s left inside you but an endless void of darkness? This is why, because I know we all have darkness and light within ourselves, and we have a free choice to choose whether we want to feed the light or darkness, I wholeheartedly forgive Gaius, as he had not the priviledge to choose between light and darkness. He was “forced” to have his darkness take over his Soul. And we could clearly see how he refused to kill innocent people and children, he refused to listen to the woman he loved, twice (would you?). Then after Rheya took control over him, he went from looking sad and worried to looking cold and sadistic. Judge him all you want, but just know that understanding something/someone requires thinking and judging does not. Most people prefer to judge as it’s easier. But so, in such state, we will never improve this planet if people will remain ignorant and judgmental. If you want a better world, start with yourself. Be the best version of yourself, try to analyze yourself, get to know yourself. When you’ll do that, you will start to understand others and why they behave a certain way. You don’t have to be like them to understand them, but we aren’t better than anyone if we stoop low with our actions just to show them how wrong they are/were. Let’s be better, let’s be the Light that this planet so desperately needs.

You don’t have to like/love Gaius to understand him. I am not even asking you to like him, but to wish him death? Suffering? And you say that all while not being under anyone’s control? See? That’s your darkness taking over your mind, over your heart. If you wish ill upon others to prove them how wrong it was when they did the same to others, you are that darkness you say you despise. You contradict yourself. It clearly shows that you loathe that side of you subconsciously thus you loathe it on others. Same with empathy. If you hate expressing and feelings positive emotions, you hate empathetic people. You see it as a weakness.

Therefore remember, the way people treat you is a reflection of themselves. The same goes for you, for me, for all of us. You say you are “good”, you talk about it, but it’s your actions that prove whether that’s true or not.

To all of you who are understanding and compassionate out there, thank you for being that Light. The world needs more sun beams like you. :) <3 God bless.

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“''Millions of people never analyze themselves. Mentally they are mechanical products of the factory of their environment, preoccupied with breakfast, lunch and dinner, working and sleeping, and going here and there to be entertained. They don’t know what or why they are seeking, nor why they never realize complete happiness and lasting satisfaction. By evading self-analyis, people go on being robots, conditioned by their environment. True self-analysis is the greatest art of progress.''” — by Paramahansa Yogananda