User blog comment:Necator7/Open Heart, Book 1/2 - Vote of Confidence/@comment-36277500-20200214144538/@comment-36277500-20200215010241

@Circy it IS rough, indeed.

We're both in the situation when we must lie low and do nothing what could endanger any of us. He is a consultant of medical department, but he has his own boss, the hospital manager. He was bullied by his former chief, and it's not that the new one is necessarily better. My beloved one is renowned for his bluntness (or rudeness) and strictness towards his own subordinates, so he has many enemies. And there are snitches in the hospital too. Not to mention the need of protecting his (and mine) privacy. It's a small hospital, so there's a mentality like in a small town, where everyone knows each other, because they gossip a lot.

I don't want to endanger him in any way. I'm a walking trouble now, so associating with me is dangerous. Especially in romantic way.

I'm accustomed to waiting, hiding and/or loving from afar (I would make a good stalker, hee hee). I waited five years to gain his trust, and I'm able to wait another five years to be with him again. And my feelings for him are the only thing what used to keep me sane in last years.

Nobody said that love is always happy and easy, anyway. But I agree that there's a glimpse of hope.

I'll update you if I know anything new about the Medical Council or the court. Again, thanks for your support! It means a lot to me.