User blog comment:Necator7/Open Heart, Book 1/2 - Vote of Confidence/@comment-36277500-20200512005006

Hi.

Sorry for alarming without a scientific reason. Just... call it a hunch.

My hospital still delays giving me access to MY PERSONAL FILES. And... I have strong impression that the predator I'm trying to set a trap onto, perfectly knows that she might face the justice for her crimes (workplace bullying, stalking, defamation, giving false testimony and forcing subordinates to participate in the crimes listed above).

Also, the hospital administration itself as well as the hospital's trade union, have many things to hide - they quite willingly agreed to unjust firing me, to cover earlier defamation and bullying from 2017/2018.

I cannot sleep, because I have dreams about this bloodthirsty aging cocotte, my former female boss. In my dreams she's aware and is up to another evil plan (like destroying or hiding documents revealing her being an instigator of my gehenna).

Laugh if you want. I'm not claiming to be a psychic. But I sometimes have a gut feeling that reveals to be correct. I felt similar uneasiness, though way stronger, just a hour before my mother called and told me that my father had a TIA (quasi-stroke). In my youth I also had such a feeling just a while before my stupid friends got caught at shoplifting... I warned them, but they laughed and said that I must have eaten something funny to get a "gut feeling".

As a rationalist, I perfectly know that dreams are mostly about unsolved problems that trouble us in our real life, or our wishful thinking.

I don't believe in divination from them.

I'm not a telepath (if I were, I would avoid most problems in my life).

I don't talk with late relatives (except in my dreams).

But sometimes... very few times... I happened to "receive" some "messages" that happened to be true. And now I have a strange feeling that something's going to be very wrong with those documents. That my Rheya-boss is up to something terrible, maybe another revenge, or just avoiding punishment, as always (in her earlier workplaces she used to make the same trouble, involving purges and personal vendettas).

I'm afraid that the management leaked some information about my request for documents, so she's now alarmed. And scared, I "feel" it. And wounded predators are most dangerous.

I hopw I'm mistaken. I sincerely want to be proven wrong, delusional, paranoid, superstitious village boor. So I could laugh of my foolishness. But now I'm just scared, like in those cases in my past, when something terrible happened.