User blog comment:Necator7/Open Heart, Book 1/2 - Vote of Confidence/@comment-36277500-20191211181918/@comment-37434202-20191212080358

Oh no! That is so unfair! That almost looks like they designed the new panel to be against you? How can people of a former panel be also in the new one without being biased? I hope you can do something about it without making new enemies.

I know a little how you feel. I am too always having trouble making friends with women of my own age. It's not that I didn't want it. But men just like me. Not even always sexually. I'm just very nice, I often like their sense of humor. Even though I'm not crude, myself. I'm kind of like a sister who needs to be protected, or something. Women don't like that. When I worked at the postal office, the few women who worked there didn't like me much and it was not something I did. Because I treat everybody equally. But when I speak what I think to a man, he appriciate it and a woman often doesnt. Like you say: a lot of them choose jealousy and intrigue, instead of being friends. It makes me sad. But HOW can your classmates think you stole the boys after they assaulted you? If I was there, back then, I would have stood at your side. I ALWAYS choose the side of justice, not the side of being popular. (which didn't make me popular, but also not hated, lol)

I understand you don't want to change your specialty. It's probably something you wanted for forever. I think choosing medicine and becoming a doctor is kind of a way of life. But it's like everyone in your work-environment lost sight of what is important in that workfield: to help people, instead of ruining them.

I wish I knew a way of helping you, but unlike Jade, I don't know anything about the medical field. Apart from my own hospital experiences. But I hope you know, that I'm on your side! And I hope that gives you strength to keep going!