User blog comment:Necator7/Open Heart, Book 1/2 - Vote of Confidence/@comment-34425588-20191217055632/@comment-36277500-20191217142545

Hi, Mags LeFayette, nice to meet you! I've read your post. Some things in my case worked. When I went to the press, it was quite huge bomb. All facts with no fantastic addictions, and the whole thing lasted for three articles in a row (it was a mini-cycle). I deeply regret I cannot place it here, because it's in Polish, and my English isn't so advanced to translate it.

There always will be persons who dislike us, no matter how we try to please everyone? I wish someone told me it a dozen years ago. I wouldn't then fall into depression. But I lived with a roomie, who was Little Miss Perfect, and "what others will say" was her religion. I could never be like her: tall, slim, beautiful, composed and graceful. I was short, chubby, tomboyish and a little crude. Her frenemies teased her that she lives with a quaint, and she blamed me for that. Of course, being constantly compared to her broken me. The most funny thing: she also wasn't so perfect as she thought to be. People gossiped about her too, and disliked her condescending and pretended demeanor. And probably it was the main reason of her frenemies teasing, more than my crudeness. I guess that even if I wasn't quaint, they would find another reason... But if I knew that time about people who would always dislike us no matter whether we are perfect or imperfect... I would avoid a huge load of problems.

Third Party... well, technically I have a privilege to take one witness with me. So I want to do.

Being calm like a freaking lake surface in a sunny day... Yes, my friends and former bosses advised me the same. But if you want to hit someone, the stick will always to be found... In 2018, when I tried to be calm, the committee called me "emotionless, mask-like, devoid of feelings" as a proof of schizophrenia. It was like playing cards with a professional cardshaper.

But now I'm not defenceless, so they know that they can't just do what they want.

What means winning to me? Well... Freedom from this nightmare. Honour, dignity, good name. Return to the specialty and following my dreams. But the most important part is my honour.

I agree with Circy that you are awesome.

Have a good day!