User blog comment:Necator7/Open Heart, Book 1/2 - Vote of Confidence/@comment-36277500-20191211181918/@comment-36277500-20191212001259

Oooh, the bullies would be more than delighted if I ran away from the specialty. But I'm not the running type... not anymore at least.

My lawyer was on his day off, so today I was with his partner from their bureau. He told me that I have the right to appeal for switching the specialists. But three of the four? He told me also that tomorrow, and the next day, I can call him for advice, and my first lawyer comes back in Monday. I have to think about strategy. This first lawyer knows my case better, so I should ask for his advice too. And I'm going to talk with some of my older colleagues of he same specialty, who might know the whole relarionships in medical environment, and possibly show me the ropes. I just don't want to make more enemies than I already have.

Well... I'm the type who's easily has enemies. My second main problem is that I'm foulmouthed and always speak the nasty truth. But the first main problem is that I'm quite pretty, so many young women instinctively hate me and pick conflicts with me. That's why I'm branded as troublemaker. Changing the specialty won't solve anything. I just want to work with male doctors or older female doctors. No young girls making career through the bed, or intriguing behind my back. I have no problem who young female patients, because they see me as patient sees a doctor, not as an equal rival.

It started when I was teenager. I was molested (groped, catcalled and threatened of rape) by some male hooligans. And how the girls in my school reacted? They were mad at me and treated me like a "bitch", because I "stole" the boys from them. As if I wanted such a vulgar and brutal suitors! I never provoked them sexually... I wasn't raped, because I tried to commit suicide before they dared to make their threats come true. After that attempt (I jumped from the window on highest floor), police came to school and started investigation. The perverts weren't punished, but stopped harassing me.

When I was in my 20s, I was bullied by some girls from my med school. Because reasons. Also older women (in their 30s) were aggressive towards me. I always looked younger than I really am. My mother in her 60s has the same "problem". And I don't even use any makeup or fancy clothes!

Now I'm in my 30s, and I have to deal with jealousy of women in their 20s, 30s and 40s. I'm deadly serious. In my ward most of doctors were women, and it was the root of the whole disaster. Men are simple and solidary to each other. Women are jealous, intriguing and always fighting each other. Always!

In surgical specialties (general/abdominal surgery, gynaecology&obstetrics, orthopaedic&traumatology etc.) there are still many male doctors, and it's my chance for normal life without intrigues and jealousy. And I love operations. Im a "do-er". I couldn't do internal medicine, pediatrics, psychiatry etc. So I wish to continue my specialty.

It's like MC in "The Royal Romance". Her enemies wanted her to run away to USA. But she stayed in Cordonia and fought to clear her name. I'll also stay and fight to clear my name.

Anyway, thank you for your support. I really need it now.

Sorry for typos.